I'm a teacher now, as many of you probably know.
Consequently I am very tired/disillusioned/frustrated/confused/happy/confident/excited/etc. Basically I am a walking disaster burried under more paper than you can shake a tree at, like most teachers.
Jumping in part way through the semester doesn't really help either. To say the least, it has been an adventure. Slowly I am starting to get my bearings and make a go of things. I'd like to get involved with some of the ongoing social justice projects at the school, and I'd also like to start a snowboarding club this winter (IF it actually snows this year, that is), the problem is that there is so little time for these extra ventures.
To anyone who ever thought their teachers had it easy, I'm here to tell you it's no walk in the park. Unless we're talking Central Park in New York, alone, at 4 am. That's what I feel like most days. I would rather be run off my feet than bored in a cubicle, though. Well, wait, that's not entirely true. The part about the cubicle is, but I would REALLY just like to have a happy balance and be able to go home at the end of the day with no work.
How did we get to a place in our society where we HAVE to take our work home? How did we get to the place where we have fully equiped home offices and little or no leisure time? Why do we find it satisfying to BUILD in these structures or "convert" guest rooms? Wouldn't you rather have guests? I would (not Borrelli though, he's belligerent - just kidding, are you kids coming down for the Mapple Syrup festival?).
Anyhow, as the one part of my life becomes more stable and finite, I'm looking to the other parts of my life thinking that somehow it just doesn't add up. Maybe I need to be more patient, maybe I need to stop rushing to the "finish" line, wherever that is. Still, I can't shake this feeling of having only a few dots connected, not nearly enough to be certain if I'm going to get a cammel or a crayfish in the end.
Maybe if I'm not on the right path I need to get off. Maybe I need more maple syrup.
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Well, you definitely need a Cuff the Duke break and should come visit us in the Hammer and get a little Hammered and bring your boy with you and then we can have push around breakfast in the morning and it will relax you and you will have fun and you will get to spend time with the people you are disconecting from and we can all be real friends again and breathe.
We were up in the 'Vale for a day on Sunday, and left yesterday morning. We missed the Fall Fests cavalcade of wooden tanks and whatnot, but I heard it was awwwwwwesome. Come to Hammertown this weekend for a break. Make Regan take some time off so you can stay more than 5 hrs this time.
Yeah teacher-ness! From talking to my teacher-cousin, it seems that teacher-hood gets easier the longer you do it because you don't have to continue making lesson plans if you're teaching the same grade/class the next year. *fingers crossed*
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